A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to My Journal

"Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage.  Just literally twenty seconds of embarrassing bravery and I promise you, something great will come of it."
Benjamin Mee (We Bought a Zoo)

So last week, I was working in my journal, minding my own business, when I got hit upside the head with a major case of "What If?"  It occurred to me, literally in a matter of moments, that while I had been practicing illustrating creatures and critters for some time, never once had a monster crossed the line between my sketchbook and my journals.  At the same moment in time, I felt an overwhelming urge to radically change my working style, just to see what would happen.  

So out came the black gesso.  I hesitated.  Yes, I did.  In just a second or two, several thoughts flashed through my mind:  "What if people hate this?"  "What if I hate this?"  "I can't tear out this page if it all goes to hell."  "What am I doing?"  "Why am I doing this?" 

And then, I just dipped my brush deep into the gesso and slapped a generous puddle of the inky black medium onto my page.  More panic as I realize I've applied too much and a river of gesso is in danger of running off the page, flooding the rest of my journal.  I regain my wits quickly, however, and stem the black tide.  I manage to remove the extra and let the rest dry.  Now what?

Somewhere deep inside my brain, a switch was thrown and I just knew how to proceed.  No hesitation, no fear.  This little ogre is the result.  And once I completed him, I turned the page and without a second thought, began to play with wild abandon.  This week and next, you'll see the results of letting go, of exploration, of bravery, of questioning, and answering. 


Melanie said…
He's lookin funny... I like this kind of fun drawng.
Liefs, Melanie
Sarah said…
I love your monster - I very much look forward to meeting more of your black gesso creatures

Also, not sure I have mentioned before as I usually read your blog via a reader so I don't get to see your blog header - but I adore your owls - especially the grumpy one in the middle :)
Cynthia said…
I love the chalkboard look of your little monster! He's awesome!! I can't wait to meet the rest of his crew. =D

And ditto what Sarah said up there...I love the owls!
Mary said…
Wanna see more....