Secondly, I am growing weary of collage. Since I am leaning heavily on my imagination and sketchbooks while I paint, collage work (i.e. using images that aren't my own) feels, at best, like a distraction and at worse, like a fraud. Drawing and painting my own stuff (and collaging my own stuff) feels the most authentic. I've been working towards 100% self-generated imagery for a few years now; I'm not sure if I'll ever get there but after five months of using found, collected images, I feel that familiar urge to refocus on my own work.
Finally, it is simply natural to lose steam in the middle of a yearlong project. 365 days is a long haul and I am not surprised that I am losing interest as I near the halfway point. However, I have zero desire to leave this project incomplete so I am giving myself permission to change things up a bit. I might do some more theme weeks or I might spend a few weeks sketching in each box. Maybe I'll do a monster-a-day for a while or just work with photos. Perhaps, I'll do two weeks of miniature landscape paintings...the possibilities are endless and the rules are non-existent.
It is good to remind myself that this journal is my playground, not my cage.