These last few days have been a strange mix of excitement and ennui as I try to find some balance between doing and being. Tis the season for such feelings I suppose. Even if I'm not directly involved in the holiday chaos, I can feel it in the air and it is sucking the life right out of me. I'm definitely looking forward to Thanksgiving break. I've been keeping up with AEDM for the most part, working on journal page construction or the journaling itself. In her videos, Teesha explains that she completes all the artwork in advance of the writing and then sits down later to add her thoughts. Thus, the images don't always relate directly to the journaling and I'm finding that hard as I tend to use the imagery to inspire and support what I have to say. I'm also struggling deeply with working in this style; it feels oddly comforting and foreign at the same time. I'm wondering how I can make this my own. Perhaps I can't. Maybe I just need to balance this sort of work with continued work in all my other journals. Art journaling is supposed to be for one's own soul alone; what it looks like isn't all that important as long as the process of building the pages supports the expression of internal dialogue. And I adore this process of collaging, character construction, doodling, and lettering. As I relax into page construction, my brain relaxes as well and the words begin to flow. That what's most important. I just need to keep that in mind if I begin to doubt myself.