Maybe it is my mile-long "To Do" list that I write completed tasks on just so I can scratch something off...perhaps it is the looming shows and teaching schedule or maybe it is the sticky, soul-sucking heat that lingers into the evening...whatever it is, my August so far has been one full of restless, unfocused energy. I feel the world winding up, the lazy days of summer winding down and I'm not sure how to feel. On one hand, I thrive a little on chaos and on the other, it eats me alive. So as the busy, busy days of fall creep forward, I try to revel in the peaceful time I have left and simultaneously, prepare to meet the chaos as prepared as possible. There is research to be done, notes to be taken, visual aides to make, paintings to paint, artist statements and price lists to develop. And all I want to do is curl up with coffee and a good movie or book, purses to be quilted in my lap. I want to journal away my nervous anticipation a page at a time. Maybe I should give in to my restlessness and take a little vacation from the "go, go, go" mindset. Those days will be here soon enough. Then, when the time arrives, I can flutter softly towards my big premiere, calm, cool, collected, confident, content.